Dad's back has gone. Today is Tuesday and it went on Sunday. He is in so much pain and I feel absolutely awful for him. I want to help. I want him to be okay. I want the pain to stop because it hurts me seeing him like this, I don't want him to suffer anymore, he doesn't deserve it.
Yesterday was fantastic. The weather was still gorgeous and I met everyone at the park for a lovely big chill. I had such a wonderful time, we went to Sainsburys and got cakes and things, as well as finding a foot ball and playing around with that for hours. It really did feel like summer, and I loved it. Everyone turned up too! Apart from El who went to the Trafford Centre with her mum instead. It was Rosie, Nathan, Vicky, Caitlin, Eddie, Kayla and myself. Such a lovely little group and we all had a well good laugh. I left at about 5 ish and got on with my art timeline - which is now completed - in the evening.
Today I woke up at the hideous hour of 9 o clock, due to having a driving lesson at 10. It went quite well actually, did a few laps around the Tytherington estate, and went up into 4th gear at the end of the lesson. 45 miles an hour! Woo-hoo!
I got home and dad was still in bed. I fed the dog her Chappy and decided to take her for a walk. Again, the weather today is stunning, and going up on the field, and even driving through the Tythy estate has given me such an uplifting and nostalgic feeling. It's too bad I can't be out like I was yesterday enjoying it, unfortunately I have to work. Sad face. El's coming over this evening though, which'll be nice.. I hope. Because at least then it means that I'm doing something. However I just hope her bad mood and negativity wont bring me down. I'm not in the mood to be manipulated by her pessimism right now.
Because of dad's back, we're not going to Leicester tomorrow anymore. Which at least means I have another day to do more work, but I was quite looking forward to seeing Sam. He's not coming to Reel Big Fish anymore either 'cause of the amount of work he has to do. I invited X in his place. Speaking of X, on Thursday I am in theory going to see him. That is absolutely terrifying. But, it's gotta be done at some point right? I'm squeeling inside. I am SO nervous words can't actually describe it. I'll be meeting all of his friends, hanging out with them, stopping over, and being judged. Great. If I pass the test then that will make this relationship 10x more brilliant and easier (especially seeing as one of his mates already has it in for me), however if they don't like me, and I don't gel with his lifestyle I'm not so sure this will continue for much longer. Basically everything is dependent on Thursday. No pressure there then.
Shit.
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