I don't know what to doooo. I don't know who to tell or how to act. I can't see myself getting over him because I'm in too deep now. And I can't get over him, because to do that I would have to know that there was no chance that we could get together. I can't find that out unless I talk to him. I can't talk to him about this. It would ruin our friendship. I feel awful and full of regret which makes me resent myself even more. Argh. I'm such an idiot, why have I waited until now to declare how I feel about him? Oooohhhh I don't know what to do. I need to talk to someone but it's got to be someone who can give me good advice, and who I can trust.

Mum will tell me to not do anything about it, but I can't do that. So what other choices are there? Argh, I'm so gonna get myself in shit here...